when it is too much..

ngehngehngeh...today gonna make history...goodbye stupidity..welcome wise and ambition...it has been too long, and it has also been shut long ago, but because of the stupid inlove attitude, blind by the self-naive, it has been dragged this long. BUt now it is time to do what i have should been doing at the beginning. SOrry for being cruel, but u have make this lady learned in a hard way...god bless

SIngapore..i'm inlove with YOU!!

Finally we are here. SO far so good..and i love this country..so peaceful, so beautiful and so clean..most of all the people are so friendly..there is no racist situation here..gosh..i love this place very muchy...if i'm given a chance to choose place to stay on, i would definately choose singapore..haahahaha..food is everywhere..and its cheap eventhough it is in singapore dollar. worthy to buy. price is affortable and the portion is big..i will enjoy these 3 months wisely...xoxoxoxo

I already start to feel the mising feeling...sobsobsob

I can't believe that it has come to the end..huhuhu...time running so fast..it feels like it was just yesterday..started to miss my dearest....i bet everyone is feeling sad inside too...being separating with one another is not an easy thing, it is the most sadness thing..huhuhu...I hate to say goodbye and i don't want to say goodbye... T_T

A moment of stress..trouble but you don't know the way out

There is a moment that you are in a big problem but no one is there to help you out or even can help you out. Even your parent would not able to give a hand to help you out. That's where you realize god was true all this while when he said that even a mother will sometime neglect her child but god never left you alone. I believe this is the moment that cause those end up with suicide. People might not understand what they gone through but i believe i do understand better now. Usually we will never know why a person choose to suicide, we only not to judge them, being prejudice. But when we in the same condition then we realize the fact. Sometime we just have to put our self in their shoes to understand..

Something that i have been thinking and doing..but the devil always try to fail me

If you love something, set it free. If it returns, it is yours. If you hang on to the status quo or to a person because you fear being alone again, you may not realize you are already isolated or backed up against a wall with no way out except to change immediately. Are you restricting yourself or using your once-treasured tokens to construct an empty shell that may no longer offer luxury, security or comfort? Money can't buy happiness and you can't take it with you when you go. With the proper incentive, you can bargain your way out of the relationship dog house if you let go of some of your stubborn pride and accept the consequences

All i wanted is someone to here me out, to give just a little attention

Why is it so hard to just have someone to give a little attention to me?Just listen to what i want to say. huhuhuhu..I'm not OK at all. But seeing people busy with their life, so happy, so stress, i have to just ignore my sadness. Dear blog I'm sorry because I'm going to burden you with my feeling. I'm so unstable emotionally. I wish this month pass by soon. I wish there is an angel coming to help me out. So many things to fight of, and i don't have the strength at all now. But i don't want to be carry away with it also....Guardian angel where are you? help me will you..

suddenly i realize...

Gosh..I'm just a place for you to dump your hectic boring stress life, whenever something happened in your life you come and talk, but when you so happy with your life and dearest, you talk and behave as if im not a human..crappppp..i shud notice this. Bro i'm not friend for benefit or whatever you consider me as..byeeeeeeee...

Breath in Breath out...that is the way of doing

The starting is always the hardest part. I'm just about to start, and that's where the temptation try to fail me. I really wanna do this and hope to do my very best this time. I really wann give all out, focus and give full hearted effort on. This year a lot of remarkeable things had happened. It was so amazing to see god's work and HIS timing was so good. HE let his plan happen just at the right time, right place and for the rigth purpose. Yesterday was my last mass in sacred heart. That church really had given me a lot of changes. I really gonna miss everything. Especially this year just right before i'm turning 24 years old, god has called for me in his personal way. Words cannot be used to describe the joy, peace and everything he has done. Praise the lord for everything. I hope i will journey this better than i ever did. For HIS sake and the sake of human kind. ^_^

Officially im declaring my self as a really weirdo!!

^_^ Yes I'm a weirdo young lady. One moment i might be very upset, so down, so depressed. Another moment you will see a young lady full with new spirit, motivated, positive thinker and a young lady with faith in her. Funny but that's me, and it all happen because of the grace my FATHER gave me. Thank you very much GOD for your love and mercy. I'm totally nothing without you.

You gave me a Heart,

Make it as a whole,

Put it together,

One soul and mind,

Then undivided Heart,

I will worship in joyful fear.

Love, Faith, Hope

A new spirit a new way..

Yesterday was terrible. I was acted so badly. Should not have been that way. Mag that i know didn't think that way. Almost letting herself drown by the situation, alomost losing herself. Thank god for HE is full of love and mercy. I knew that i can always count on HIM whenever i'm losing my track, whenever i'm drowning, because HE is my father. May is the month to honour the mother of christ. In directly she is my mother too because when christ on the cross he has given his mother to those who believes. Things happen for purpose. Even what happen now is already written in his plan. As the daughter of the almight and mother mary, i should take this challenge of life. I should not be afraid to go through the suffering, eventhough it really hurts me and torned my heart into pieces. I should imitate mother mary in my life especially now this month, when this is the month to honour her sacrifieces, her patient. I should as well imitate christ my saviour as he never give up or even run away from the suffering is been put in.

There is one thing that i have always believe in, and temptation and my self pity has always make me doubt about my own belief.. "If it is already ready in HEAVEN, in HIS PLAN that thing should be as the way it is, then it will happen that way, If two person are made to be with each other, no matter how far, no matter what happen now, one day god will reunite you with the love that he has send from above. Have faith in HIM"

Where should i go and What should i do??

What i have thought of all this while was true. What should i do to myself now? How should i? I'm confuse..It's hard, It's hurt, and it does make me cry..I desperately need help!!! ;(

When i can only ponder inside

Dear god, I know you are the only person who know how i feel at this moment? To others i can hide so many things but to you none can i. Today with my sister permission, i open her fb just to find out about something from there. And to my surprise i found out a lot. yes i felt sad, very. I wanted to cry, but all i can do is just to let the tears run out inside me. To know the truth is what i have always hunger for but to know that what you have sensed coming before really just the way it is, hurting so much. Even worse when the moment you sensed it, you seek for the answer directly from that person but that person just denied it. How much will it hurt if you just tell the person the truth when you were asked to?Why have to wait till the person found out by herself? The truth that people do not really know about the truth is that when the person himself found out the truth by himself and knowing that the thing he asked for assurance before was the truth that the person denied and hidden it. That's hurt the most. I don't know how long and how much can i get again from this. And to know the reason for what happening, even worse. Thanks for everything, i really get a lot from you..