OMG...now only i realize..very lucky indeed

Thank god. I'm not lucky but I'm blessed. And I never knew it. But one thing for sure is that everything happened for purpose even if i don't want it to be in that way. I'm glad i have never doubt about this fact. ^_^ Today god answered my prayer again. I asked him why i can get what i want especially when it comes to love, relationship. I asked him why is it when i like someone, that person will have someone else or reject me?why is it when only i appeared in that person life, he found someone he like? The answer is because that person is not for me and that like feeling i have was just due to the happiness and comfort that i found in the moment when i was lonely..ehheheheeh...thank god for he love me and did not let me fall into this trap of life. I'm so relieve now, very grateful and ashamed of myself for acting like a kid, rush in things and for unable to get control of myself, my desired. Something i need to pray for. ^_^

past totally a past

I could not recap the exact date, but what I'm 100% sure of is that it is totally a past for me. Hell yeah I'm so happy that i manage to get out of the chain. Chain that chained me for half years. But felt like ages though. Thanks to St.Francis Assisi, for it has been the place where i find the source and courage. Most of all is the answer that i have been searching since i can't even know when. ahhahahaha....this experience totally give me a big lesson to learn and remember always. For now, I'm happy for what is happening in my life for who i am, to be able to smile even when I'm alone, to even to talk to myself and most of all to smile to everyone and anytime even when the situation is not at the best. ^_^ I'm so generous with my smile now...ahhahaha

Finally i have time to write...gonna post out few tonight..

Halo world...currently I'm in Singapore doing my internship. A final path before i get a piece of paper that will make me a different person at least in term of my status. hahahahahha... life was busy here, don't even have time to write anytime since i was here 4 weeks ago. Came back from work with a tired body, mind and soul. All i could think is to sleep and need to wake up early as early as 4 am. However, i love the city, i love the garden and i love the people i work with especially the bangla. They are so good in work though a tiny group (1%) of them have the intention to bully new people like me. But lucky me because i handled the situation well. One thing very obvious changing in me is my skin tone. Just in a day, i can say half day, i get sunburn. Now i look almost like a person that i don't even recognize myself. Fair skin gone. Hopefully i can recover before my convocation this November. I'm super duper excited about it. And whenever i felt of giving up in my internship especially when facing the hard time, only graduation makes me full of spirit and to keep moving. Well i believe that is one of god's work in me. I only need HIM in my life, having HIM in me, I will get everything i need even to the human it is impossible, because nothing is impossible in GOD's eyes. ^_^

when it is too much..

ngehngehngeh...today gonna make history...goodbye stupidity..welcome wise and ambition...it has been too long, and it has also been shut long ago, but because of the stupid inlove attitude, blind by the self-naive, it has been dragged this long. BUt now it is time to do what i have should been doing at the beginning. SOrry for being cruel, but u have make this lady learned in a hard way...god bless

SIngapore..i'm inlove with YOU!!

Finally we are here. SO far so good..and i love this country..so peaceful, so beautiful and so clean..most of all the people are so friendly..there is no racist situation here..gosh..i love this place very muchy...if i'm given a chance to choose place to stay on, i would definately choose singapore..haahahaha..food is everywhere..and its cheap eventhough it is in singapore dollar. worthy to buy. price is affortable and the portion is big..i will enjoy these 3 months wisely...xoxoxoxo

I already start to feel the mising feeling...sobsobsob

I can't believe that it has come to the end..huhuhu...time running so fast..it feels like it was just yesterday..started to miss my dearest....i bet everyone is feeling sad inside too...being separating with one another is not an easy thing, it is the most sadness thing..huhuhu...I hate to say goodbye and i don't want to say goodbye... T_T

A moment of stress..trouble but you don't know the way out

There is a moment that you are in a big problem but no one is there to help you out or even can help you out. Even your parent would not able to give a hand to help you out. That's where you realize god was true all this while when he said that even a mother will sometime neglect her child but god never left you alone. I believe this is the moment that cause those end up with suicide. People might not understand what they gone through but i believe i do understand better now. Usually we will never know why a person choose to suicide, we only not to judge them, being prejudice. But when we in the same condition then we realize the fact. Sometime we just have to put our self in their shoes to understand..