Don't Promise to me that you will love me forever.
Don't Promise to me that i will be the only one.
Don't Promise to me that you will never able find replacement for me.
Don't Promise to me that you will never forget me.
Don't Promise to me that you will always remember me in your prayer.
Don't Promise to me that you will not stop to love me.
Don't Promise to me that I'm the one.
Don't Promise to me that you will not hurting my feeling.
Don't Promise to me that you will not leave me alone.
Don't Promise to me that if the person is not me you married with, you rather be someone else.
Don't Promise to me that you will wait for me no matter how long.
Don't Promise to me that you will mark your words and promises.
Don't Promise to me that you will not repeat the same mistakes.
Don't Promise to me that you will tell me everything.
Don't Promise to me that you will never give up on me.
MOST of ALL....
Don't ever Promise to me that you will go through this with me.
Because it really breaks my heart the most when you are not around when i needed you the most. You said to me, you will journey this hard times together with me, but all you do is running away from me. And all i can do is just to ponder inside. Holding myself together. It is not because what you did, the fault you did, did cheat and lies that hurts me the most. BUT those promises of yours hurt me. I have told you before don't promise me anything because for now you might able hold tight to those promises. BUt when bad things come, all of this will just be another sweet talk, sweet words of yours. BUT you wouldn't want to listen, you even asked me to trust me and just wait and see. AND now i am seeing that your promises are just sweet words of yours. You said you will love me forever and will not stop to love me BUT now you already hate me very much. You said you will never able find my replacement, BUT a month after break up you already with someone new. You said you will never give up on me, BUT as thing get worst, you leave me alone. I trust you very much and you know it is not easy for me to trust anyone. BUT you just smash the trust like it is something useless for you. You asked me to give in, to love you more, to trust you, You even blame me, find fault in me, saying i hurt you, saying that i don't love you because i said so, saying that i treated you bad. You even said that i have lost the person who love me very much, truly love me. AND i didn't see that person when we are together. ANd to that person, I would want to say that you only love me when i'm in my best. BUt as i'm at my worst, you no longer inlove with me. I once ever asked you, HOW MUCH DO YOU LOVE ME? You said a lot, with whole your heart. BUT now, where are you? Where is that love? All gone, VANISH!! And its officially declare when you be with someone else, inlove with her because you no longer want to wait and stay strong for the love that you said it was a true pure love from your heart for me. The climax of the story is when you said to me, I DON'T LOVE YOU ANYMORE, I LOVE SOMEONE ELSE and I DON'T WANT TO BE WITH YOU ANYMORE. NOT for ONCE, NOT TWICE, BUT more than that, again and again...
To that person, I only HAVE 3 questions that i ever wanted to ask you since the day you are gone; DO YOU EVER MISS ME? DO YOU EVEN THINK OR WONDERING OF ME EVEN A SECOND? lastly DOES THAT LOVE YOU HAVE FOR ME REALLY VANISH?... i know i will never get any answers. BUT i know god will tell me one day. AND to that person I would want to say this :
"You don't have to ask me how much i love you, there is no need for you to give more to make me stay inlove with you. DO not ask me what can i give to you, Do not even ask me to give in. Because ON the DAY i said I DO, I meant it with all my heart. Because ON the DAY i said I LOVE YOU and YOU ARE THE ONE SENT FROM ABOVE FOR ME, that YOU ARE THE ONE I PRAYED FOR, IT is in fact the truth from me that never die. THE only thing you should always trust in me is when i said i love you and you the one i want to spend the rest of my life with. Because i was telling something that i can't say to anyone else but you. AND to that person, i want to answer a question of yours that you ever asked me before..my answer is, never even a second that you are not in my mind and heart"..and for another question of yours, my answer is...YES I DO, even NOW, it has never change since the rosary night"
P/S: I LOVE YOU
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