When i can only ponder inside

Dear god, I know you are the only person who know how i feel at this moment? To others i can hide so many things but to you none can i. Today with my sister permission, i open her fb just to find out about something from there. And to my surprise i found out a lot. yes i felt sad, very. I wanted to cry, but all i can do is just to let the tears run out inside me. To know the truth is what i have always hunger for but to know that what you have sensed coming before really just the way it is, hurting so much. Even worse when the moment you sensed it, you seek for the answer directly from that person but that person just denied it. How much will it hurt if you just tell the person the truth when you were asked to?Why have to wait till the person found out by herself? The truth that people do not really know about the truth is that when the person himself found out the truth by himself and knowing that the thing he asked for assurance before was the truth that the person denied and hidden it. That's hurt the most. I don't know how long and how much can i get again from this. And to know the reason for what happening, even worse. Thanks for everything, i really get a lot from you..